well if some of you heard i was rapped last night, that isnt true, but i was assulted by a person i use to consider my friend.. i had went to town to hang out with saki n have a drink felt like gettin drunk but i had like maybe a beer out of my 8 pack cuz i jus didnt feel like doin it after awhile everything we wanted to do wasnt working out n we both were jus like fuk it so we drove around till like 12ish then i dropped her back off at credit union i had drank wat i wanted which was 1 beer my so called friend normie beaton txtd me to go down behind the mall in behind price chopper jus to talk for a bit so i was like ya ok... so i went, THAT WAS THE BIGGEST MISTAKE OF MY LIFE!! insted of stayin in my car cuz i wanted a smoke n he had smokes i got in his, we were there talkin for about 20 mins when he started tryin to like kiss me n shit i jus pushed him off n was sorry bud i dont want to do that, truely n deeply theres only one person in my life that has that priveldge, so he backed off and i thought he got the hint, but i guess he didnt the next thing i knew he had me slammed into the seat of the car tryin to do shit n i was like dude like seriously fuck off man im not jokin i dont want to do shit i dont like u in that way and so take the hint. when i started fighting back on him he got real pissed n punched me right in the mouth causing my lebret to rip a bit n then tryed to force me to do shit ive got bruses all over my jut from him punching me my right boob is brused so bad an scabbed from where tryed to bite me, and i got a good handful of hair ripped out of my head, we faught for probably a good 10 mins an i managed to fight him off me n get back to my car n go to the cops, he is being charged for sexual n physical assult, but beyond that point im not the peson i was yesturday im changed drastacly, this is going to be hard to get over like realy hard to get over cuz this was a guy i looked up to like a big brother.
sittin in the cop station 1 30 in the morning having to strip so they could take pics of my injurys i felt so violated so scared an and my security shattered i felt alone and numb i didnt know wat to do with myself, i jus looked at consp bulger n was like i guess my days of goin out is over...
the whole time i was fightin normie off i was thinking wat is he going to do to me will i get out of this car alive will i see brodie will i see jesse will i see saki again, if theres a god help me get the fuck out of this car, the first thing i did when i got home was picked brodie out of her crib and went n sat n the rocking chair with her and cryed and rocked her cuz shes the only thing that matters to me in this whole entired world.